The first of the last

Soon Mackenzie will start her senior year of high school. Yes, I am serious about that. And yes, it really truly does seem like she was just a babe. This year will be marked with a lot of lasts.

Yesterday she tried out for her last home school play and we are eagerly awaiting the email with what her part it - we hope anyway that she got a part. She did get a call back and so hopefully that is good news.

If you know me well at all, you know I will have a hard time with this year. I really feel like life is flying by me at break neck speed and it seems so unfair. Mackenzie, as all high school seniors will mark this year with a lot of last times. I as the mom will more then likely shed a few tears. What can I say? I super love my kids and have never been in a hurry for them to grow up, I have never been eager for them to get out of the house. Mackenzie at this point has no plans for next year, she shows a lot of maturity when she says to me that her favorite color changes each week, how can she make a decision on what she wants to do with her whole life. She knows her ultimate goal, and it is a fantastic one at that!!

So here I sit, the mom who has started with the first of the lasts......how am I doing? I was nervous all day for her, this is her last time, she has always done such a great job with the plays, and I know how much she enjoys them. I hope she gets a fantastic part and knocks us out!! I am nervous as we wait for the email, and yes, I have felt tears a few times well up but have choked them down. This will be a bitter sweet year!

Mackenzie, you are a phenomenal girl, a true beauty, and I love you. When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance!!