For those of you who have dealt with it you know how hard it can be. I have dealt with this ugly beast many times, and have figured out that I am fighting it again. I realized this yesterday when I was walking aimlessly through the Wal Mart parking lot unable to find my car or remember where I had parked it. I was almost in tears, I felt defeated. Once I found it, unloaded and sat down, I started putting two and two together. Unable to sleep, unable to kick the glooms, confused, and unable to do some normal functions. I have been down this road before. I have used prescription meds in my past, however, the side effects are not good for me. I have used herbal remedies, not good to use while you are nursing. Most of the time I am able to kick this with prayer, better nutrition and slowing down a bit. Most of the time I can get through these bouts quickly, a conscious effort to smile, to relax, to enjoy, to lean on God. Sometimes life brings you down these difficult roads, I am ok with that, there is refining going on.
I had to turn down a great offer today, and I am feeling really guilty about it. So the battle begins, if I would have gone, it would have kept me away from home where I really need to be today, but now going makes me feel bad because it would have been fun, and perhaps needed time away for the other person.
Today is May Day, our family loves this day, we love putting together the bags of goodies and dropping and running, it makes us laugh. I am looking forward to this today. Looking forward to the laughs, to the kids trying to catch others and running lie crazy to get away from those who we are dropping off too. In fact, someone has already gotten us today!!
I seem to have a bit of the stomach bug which started yesterday afternoon - yucky